I don’t know what’s worse: the fact that Will still gets up during the night, or the 9:30 pm bedtime. One of the things I find most exhausting about having a baby is the lack of down time. Having to care for a baby from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to bed is SO draining. And yes, the middle of the night feedings aren’t exactly refreshing, but if I can have a few hours to myself in the evenings they aren’t so bad.
I know I shouldn’t be comparing my kids (but aren’t we always?) BUT. Every day I think, “By this age Kalena was going to bed at 7 and sleeping until 6.” Even if he still needs a middle of the night feeding sometimes (it’s not every night) I wish he would just GO TO BED. He’s on this stupid schedule right now where he takes a nap at 6 or 7, sleeps for an hour and then is up until at least 9 pm. It is driving me insane. It doesn’t work to keep him up later, if he goes to bed anytime before 8:30 (at the earliest) he’ll be up again after an hour.
Maybe he’s just more of a night-owl than Kalena. I know if I would let him he’d nurse back to sleep in the mornings. (I don’t, because I am apparently laboring under the delusion that getting him up will make his bedtime earlier.) And that wouldn’t be so bad if he would sleep in and I could have some time to myself in the mornings, but then Kalena is up. (Another reason I get Will up.) So. Point is, I feel exhausted. That’s all really.